The Things We Do Not Say: Talking About the Unspeakable

“Silence is not the absence of something but the presence of everything” Something happened this weekend. It was heart-rending and immense and the repercussions will reverberate for a long time. And all weekend I’ve been trying to figure out how to write about it, because that’s how I deal with stuff. But I can’t. For …

Have You Ever Been “Gaslighted”? Why You Don’t Get To Call Me Crazy [My Emotional Freedom Manifesto]

You are crazy. He said it so many times I believed him. I had to. It was the only explanation that made sense. The alternative – that he was a charismatic psychopath hell-bent on destroying me – was too terrifying to be considered. And so I believed him when he told me that I was …

How to Combat a Fat-and-Ugly Attack! [Since un-tagging myself in photos isn’t working]

I love love love Natalie Dee. This weekend something awesome happened: My husband’s grandmother, the last living grandparent either one of us has, came to visit. It was the first time my children have ever met their great-grandmother although they know her well from the cards and stickers she sends them on their birthdays. In …

Searching for my Unified Theory of Crazy: I Officially Have Adult ADHD – Now what?? [Plus, why I cried in Frozen]

I need this shirt SO BAD. “That’s not normal, you know,” the doctor said, tapping the chart lightly with her pen. She was looking at some preliminary test results for one of my sons who I had brought in to talk about his problems at school. (Ironically it’s not the son the school was telling …

How Philip Seymour Hoffman’s Death is Helping Me Understand My Own Struggles With Addiction [Along with the unlikely help of Russell Brand]

Sorry, had to do it. But he really was amazing, right?? “Who’s Philip Seymour Hoffman?” I asked loudly, interrupting the noise of that football game yesterday that I was so interested in I spent the whole time either re-enacting Frozen using Barbies with Jelly Bean or surfing the web on my phone. “Game maker from Hunger …

That Time I Tried To Help Someone And Ended Up Totally Insulting Them [Operation Give a Little Days 3 and 4: Give a helping hand, give up your parking spot or place in line!]

This little guy in the middle would be me: Trying hard but getting it all mixed up – but still throwing some stellar JAZZ HANDS! Jazz hands make everything better.  “Aiieeee!” There was a shout and loud clatter as a woman nearby us in the parking lot of the hardware store watched all of her …

What To Give When You Feel Like You Have Nothing Left To Give [Day 1 of Operation Give a Little: Compliment]

A fist bump. Being alone at the gym is unlike being alone anywhere else. For one thing, it’s an oddly intimate setting for interacting with strangers. I mean, when’s the last time you all stripped down and got sweaty while singing to yourself on the subway? Or at church? Or the mall? (Don’t answer that.) …

My Anti-Depression Diet: Is It Working? [Can you really out-eat mental illness?]

Snarky salespeople are also a great anti-depressant. This poststarted out very different than it ended. I was all set to write another slightly heartbroken post about how my sad was making me sad and the sadness was unrelenting but then I realized – in the course of writing this out – that maybe that isn’t …

I Had My Own “Touching Strangers” Moment! What would you do if a strange woman cupped your face in her hands?

 (c) Richard Renaldi “Oh, it hurts.” At first read you might imagine the woman – a stranger in all senses – grasping her chest (or arm or foot), wincing at the embarrassment of Pain in Public. On second read you might imagine the woman saying it in dismay, as if she were the cause of …

The Healthy Food That Made Me Sick and the Junk Food That Made Me Feel Better [Can You Use Diet to Cure Depression?]

Can you spot the superfood in this picture? Look closely! Trust me, it’s pretty darn super. Vomit. That’s what you get when you combine two tasty “superfoods” in excess and swallow. By now I should know that anything – from kale juice to Kanye West – taken in excess makes me barf. And yet, there’s …